I Have A SECRET

What the f**k is wrong with me? Damn! I hate this! I totally hate this. It’s really weird. It’s really awkward. It’s a MESS. I’m messing up with my friends. So, what now? Please help me get through this. I might blow up sooner. (sigh) The question is? Who’s gonna help me? FUCK! I should’ve known these things before. I can’t even confide to anyone. It’s like a torture. I can’t go on like this anymore. I don’t wanna hurt those people around me. I don’t wanna see them freak out when they found out that…

So, who’s who? Ssshhhhh... Be quiet. I’m gonna tell you something. But! But… It’s a secret dude. I must keep it myself. And the least thing I could do is to shut my mouth. Damn! Why can’t I tell anyone about this? Yeah! Yeah! Right! I know! You need not remind me! I’m pretty sure of what I’m doin’. But the thing here is that….. I might explode sooner. I’m such a dummy coward, afraid to be caught. Loser like! And I‘m always the second best! Why can’t I be the best? LOL! Duuhhh... I’m freakin’ out in silence.

Here’s a scope about this secret. For me, he’s just some other guy. Ahh! No! No! He’s quite a guy. A guy who’s been searching himself all his life but his search took him nowhere but…Shhhh… And oohhh wait a second. Let just call him SPIDERMAN. He is something! But I guess.... I gotta leave it that way..I never thought that it would end like this. Oohh well, then maybe, God has his own reasons why he let this happen to me. Everything happens for a reason right? (hush) It’s alright! I have Him. Buckle up Beng! Just watch your mouth okay? You just don’t know how it’ll cost you!

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest”

I must leave out all the rest… and you too...