It's rainin' rainin'..(what a day)

What a day! My classmates were so busy attending rehearsals and other things. They've got lot of things to cope with. It seems like I'm the one who's getting dizzy with their hectic schedules. Good for me that I wasn't elected! whoaa! Sorry guys but you have to do your job! It's a challenge and you guys have to cope with the situation and sacrifice some things. Gosh! The rain was pouring down that I think it has no stopping! Let's break a leg tomorrow! By the way who's leg are we gonna break? (cge katawa nah moh 1 2 3 CUT!)

What's wrong with you guys?

Well, do I still have to reiterate the reasons why I am absent these past few days? Guys, come on! Why do you care so much? Thanks for the concern anyways, it’s much appreciated. But you know this is my life. There are just days that I don’t feel like attending classes. Just don’t mind me. I know God has his own purpose. I’m finding myself nowhere. But you know what? You guys helped me a lot. You helped me so much that I couldn’t get a way to lie to you. (LOL) Well, I’m just being honest with you. It’s just too annoying that I can’t stand lying to you. You knew me well, which is enough for you to build such stories. Funny isn’t it? I’m happy for you’ve cared a lot for me, for my studies and for our friendship as well. But there is that one person that I don’ like his accusations sometimes. Are you jealous? (laughing..) That would be very impossible. I won’t discuss further about that guy. He is just someone who must not be named. But, you know I’ve realized that how important I am to you. And that’s just the coolest thing I’ve ever felt. (paimportansya lugr koh?) Anyways, that would be all. Am I doing too much? Remind me always that you guys are there and that HE is there… Keep rockin’ SPR! Keep the faiths rollin’!

Happy 19th Birthday Ting!

A close friend of mine is celebrating her 19th birthday today! (let's party) I am happy for she has turned nineteen (at least 3 nah meh 19 sa girls) and she has gone far in terms of her experience in life. I am happy for she's healthy and she's got a family to hold on to at her age. I am happy for God has given her another year to celebrate her birthday. I am happy for she's always there for me when I needed her most. I am happy for WE are friends! Happy happy birthday Ms. Hazel Grace Aranduque (aka titing, bating, batz.. fyi).

“Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.”

May you have many more birthdays to come in life ting and many more blessings to come! I am just so blessed to have you my dear friend! Welcome to the 19th year of your life! Feel free to explore HIS creations. God bless you always ting! Good luck to our thesis A partner.

L O V E

Love?

What would you say
If I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying 'I love you.'
Love isn’t... Candy and Flowers.

More often than not, couples believe that’s the most important ingredient of love. How else am I supposed to show her/him that I love him/her? is a common explanation offered. More like a unwritten or unspoken law.
Sure, when you love someone you do feel a need to express that love. Such modes of expression are nice, but, not PRIMARY. What is ridiculous here is that days like V day become an issue rather than just another excuse (nice) to celebrate.
The most mature expression of love is unspoken.
Don't agree? Let's look at it this way: To maintain something you need to put in the same inputs that went into the making of it. Right?
When you fell in love, candies and flowers were not exchanged.

So... what made you fall in love in the first place?
What was it
That I saw in you
Which made me lose
All my cool.

What was it
That caused a ripple
Within the still waters
Of my heart

Was it the gleam in your eyes
When our glance met once in a while,
Was it the lop-sided smile
Which lit your face when you passed by me

Was it the long out-stretched hand
Which held me back when I stumbled,
Was it the kind words you said
When for no reason I was humbled

Whatever it is
I only know
That I am not myself anymore

The sky seems bluer
The moon too bright
My heartbeats do not feel quite right

I know I'll wait
But how long more
To hear your silence
Break to speech...

And then... it happens. Come in the flowers, the candy. For those lucky ones, if the original inputs remained unchanged/increased... Romance! Rejoice!! Ravioli!!!
But for those, for whom all that went out the window, or took a backseat... Rejoice now, hold your breath later! Suddenly after commitment, couples forget to "talk". It's nobody's fault really. All this has come in through years of conditioning.
It is the latter relationship which is so relation less. Why do you NEED to utter sweet nothings or give materialistic things to PROVE your love??? Love is SHOWN, and not based on gifts or words. Your parents don't keep belabouring how much they love you, but you KNOW. And that's the TRUE unparalleled beauty of it. Why can't we emulate that in every other relationship of love?

Saying 'I Love You'
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say

But if you only knew
How easy It would be
To Show me how you feel

More than words
Is all you have to do
To make it real

Then you wouldn't Have to say
That you love me
'Coz...
I'd already know.


from: Anonymous

LONELINESS

Where am I?
Why am I always with you?
What do you want from me?
Do I owe you something?

Hey! Wait!
Don’t you dare go!
Do not leave me.
I can’t take it

It’s really obscure, isn’t it?
I hate it to be with you
But deep inside of me
Is wanting you

You know it when I’m sad
You know it when I’m happy
You know it when I’m angry
Why do you know me so much?

That’s why I like being with you
I don’t have to explain any thing
You’re just there listening
And comforting

Why can’t other people see what I’m feeling?
But you do
I’m grateful for the times that you’re there
When I’m down and troubled

Can you stay with me forever?
Maybe you will.
And will you help me find myself?
Pleaseeeeeeeeeee….

For now, can you leave me?
I can’t take it anymore...
I really can’t...
Please take away the loneliness I have…

The Kiddo

It was a Sunday mid afternoon when I got to have the chance to ride a jeepney. I was bored riding on that jeepney. Not until a family of came and also ride at NHA. I was stunned when the kid (hmm..I guess he's a 5 year old boy) calmly and effortlessly patted the man beside me on his shoulder to reach out the fare of the other passenger. (whew) At his age? He already knows how to do such thing? And as I have notice the kid came from a well-to-do family. That was the very best thing I've witnessed on that day! Imagine, a kid? On that particular age? That was awesome. It was my first time to witness such incident. As I look back at the kid, his father caught my eyes and smiled at me for I was also smiling with what I had just saw. I say, the kid was raised well and he's got a lot of things to face in this life. He's still young dude! A five-year old smart kid. God bless!

The Day She Left

It was 3:00 in the morning of March 13, 2008. The morning breeze was pouring down my spine as I went outside the house to check mama. She slept outside because she felt so hot inside and she's got fever. (ironic?) She wanted to feel the air outside. As I approached her, I held her forehead if she's still burning with fever. Well, thank God she's just okay? She told me that she's hungry, that she wanted to eat a hotdog but there's none left in the fridge and so I suggested to her that there's a chicken. And so she agreed to cook her fried chicken, but I told her that I can't cook for her knowing that I'll be preparing for the seminar in Valencia, Bukidnon on that same day. I told her that Diday (my elder sister will cook for her) will cook for her. I was thankful that she nodded. I was upset with what happen. I should have been the one doing that for I am the one she approached. After a short talk with mama, I told her to sleep for she hadn't sleep well from the past few hours. And so she did. I kept going. I had shower and took my breakfast and drink some coffee as well while checking her constantly outside. It was around 4:20 am when I finished preparing. I was stunned when I saw mama looking at me while I am getting my things for the seminar. She asked me where am I'll be going on that early hour. I told her that "I had already told you that we'll be conducting a seminar in Valencia and I'll be back in a day". She nodded and told me to take care of myself. That particular moment I was thinking twice if I should go. Honestly, I was having a hard time deciding if I should come for I had failed our ICT (Information and Communications Technology)adviser once and now I felt a shame if would not come. After saying goodbye to mama, I went out and I walk 'til corner.

I feel like going back home that time. I felt the urge to go back home. But it was a lil' too late. My fellow ICT members came late and so we waited long. The time for our departure came. It was around 6:00 in the morning when we got to leave CDO. At the van, I was totally wasted. I can't understand what I'm feeling. They cheered me up. But it didn't work out. We arrive at Valencia at exactly 9:00 and we went straight to Lando's house. We had a short meeting in there and then we went ahead to Bagong Taas National high School. The campus was quite big. It was 10:30 am when we had the chance to start the seminar after much discussion with the school principal. The seminar went well. The students did not actually appreciate what we had discussed for the topics were beyond their reach. They were still working on Microsoft Office Applications and we were discussing about Macromedia Fireworks, Flash and more...When it was my turn to deliver my piece I delivered it bad. And as soon as I was done my phone rang. I wasn’t expecting Diday to call me. That then I was stunned in silence. She was sobbing and couldn’t say a word but this “uli na daun” and the phone was off. I was startled. I texted her and I knew it. She’s gone. It’s too late for me. What now? It’s my fault. I’m not worth it. I’m such a stupid fool who doesn’t know how to prioritize things. I’m bitter. I can’t turn back the time which she needed me most.

LEFT ALONE

Why am I always being left? Why can't I be the one leaving them? (gasp) Ain't it unfair? I can't stand losing them but I have let them go. I don't own them. They've got their own lives and I've got mine too. Spare me some. Is this the norm? They always leave me and they've got to find a new one.

Searching..Waiting..Wanting..Praying..

Searching...
For someone

Waiting...
For someone

Wanting...
For someone

Praying...
For someone

Pagsure Moh Oi

I'm not affected guys! What about! I've had enough! hahaha! Don't call me defensive because I myself don't know how to handle such reactions! Blame me neither! You know things aren't meant to be. And so is he. I can't stand him even before! The summer vacation was a help though and of course those people who's name must not be mentioned (issue napod!). For now, I'm happy being with you guys. I can't think of anyone really. What is happening? Lord! Give me someone whom I can call mine..Enjoy life Beng! There's more to life than this! I'm happy for them!

P.S.
I knew it all along... :)

Fare Hike

This is too much! How could it possibly be happening. Well, what do i have to expect? This is the reality. The economy is getting too bad. Lots of government official's are corrupt. Graft and corruption is totally increasing. And unemployment here in the Philippines is impossible. The paper concludes that there is indeed structural unemployment in the country as indicated by the continuous increase in the number of unemployed, the number of graduates from degree and technical-vocational courses, and the number of job vacancies being posted in the newspapers, radio programs, and in the Internet e.g., Phil-JobNet, jobsdb.com, jobstreet.com, etc.) What's next? I am a student. I myself is affected to that. How much more the others who doesn't have an income. And now, THE FARE INCREASE. I'm totally pissed off! Give a life naman! I can't barely stand it! It costs a lot. Have mercy! Please lessen down the price of the OIL.

True Love Waits..

I was really fascinated by the post bulletin of Kemmuel (a former classmate). It was a site http://wagmuna.com..(lol)..I was fascinated by the sites name and got curious. And so, I opened it. Gosh! The articles was really great. The site is usually for us teens, for the young generations. The so- called LOVE now is being neglected and is being defined as LUST..(what about!)What the heck is happening now teens? Speak up! We have to know things. And those things won't come to us right away. God will show us the way. That if we will let Him show us. For us teens today, though should be aware of what's goin' on. We have to realize that we can change the trends. True love really waits. Just read these :

Question:
Why does God demand sexual purity?

Answer:
God isn’t demanding sexual purity because he’s mean and doesn’t want us to have fun. He created sex and wants you to enjoy it at its best. And His best plan is for sex to be enjoyed in marriage, by one man and one woman who have made a commitment to love each other.

Here’s a thought: magsusuot ka ba ng damit na matagal nang hindi nalalabhan or would you prefer yung bagong bili or bagong laba? Siyempre, yung bago!

As with God, He wants us to have the best not second best… ok? Iba si Lord. He loved us so much He died on the cross for us to enjoy purity sa future relationship natin with the opposite sex and especially with Him.

..Guys visit http://www.wagmuna.com/..I'm sure you too will get enlightened too..

E M P T Y

Empty or in short vacant? What is it then? Meaningless right? This is what i've been feeling all along. This pitiful emptiness inside me won't let me go. I hate this feeling! I really really hate this! Hate is a strong word but i really really don't like it! Why does it taunt me all this time? Why am I very much affected? Does it matter? Why? Why? Why? I'm craving for some love..(LOL)Won't you give me some? Will you? I've suffered too much to hide my feelings. I think about that "empty" space a lot. That emptiness is what allows for something to actually evolve in a natural way. I've had to learn that over the years - because one of the traps of being a HUMAN is to always want to be creating, always wanting to produce. You know that day after day of, Oh God what am I going to do with my self's feeling? The fear of the emptiness that it implies keeps me going because loving can cost a lot but not loving always costs more, and those who fear to love often find that want of love is an emptiness that robs the joy from life. We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When we understand this, we see that we are nothing. And being nothing, we are everything. That is all.

Asa Kah Oi?

Where were you
When I needed you most
When my eyes were red
And my heart shattered?
Where were you,
When I cried
Afraid to be seen
Afraid to be held?
Where were you
When my world crashed down
And I needed someone
But you were't there?
Where were you
When I tried to find you
But you hid yourself
So very well?
Where were you
When I cried out your name
Wishing you back
Wishing you well?
Where were you,
When I reached out
Into empty space
Wishing you were there?
Where were you
When I wanted,
And needed you,
Most of all?

simple pero rock?

(pagure?) Yeaahhhh!! SIMPLE PERO ROCK!!..What a NAME? (hmmm) I am one of them. It was founded last December 22, 2007. Well, actually we already published a DVD. (hahahah) I mean Sam edited our pictures and videos from the party rather. It was really great. It's his masterpieces. (eh eh eh) For the record I will name all the members of the SPR family. Namely: Samuel: the Leader, Prince: the noisy ever, Jilyan: the photographer, Sheen: the programmer, Gilbert: the genius, Desiree Mae: the walking ATM, Elmer: the serious guy, Ronald: the party goer, Hazel Grace: the rocker, Aiza: the miss cagayan to be, Philip Jayson: the silent ever, Hansel Ian: the ateneans ? Vegie: the responsible' Jan Lyvin: the hunk, Ralph: the loner, Eloiza: the ever silent who turned out to be so loud, and lastly AKOH (bebeng): the frustrated cook. That is our group. "UNITED WE STAND DIVIDED WE FALL". Despite the odds, we still manage to keep the group on its place. The last few weeks had been really tough for us. And thank God we still strive to go no with our classes and bonding's everyday. Love yah guys.. keep the faith rollin'..

WHAT ABOUT?

..whew..Currently the SIMPLE PERO ROCK FAMILY in short SPR is on the making of a short movie entitled WHAT ABOUT? (laughin') ..grabeh kah what about. The short movie is directed by Gilbert together with the cameraman's namely: Sam, Prince, Sheen, Elmer (hmmm who else?)...The story was leaded by Aiza and Lyndon..(LOL! ex-lovers)..and of course the remaining SPR are also on the casts..This is going to be great..We're making this short movie as a presentation for the upcoming acquaintance..(gosh! what can i say!)Hopefully, the remaining scenes will be done as soon as possible for them to edit it..And by the way Sam and Gilbert will edit the movie? And perhaps some SPR will also help..I can't wait to see it..yeaahhh!!!!!!!!!..