Those Were the DAYS...

Sometimes, when i think back about the past. I simply can't believe what i have been doing, during those days.. (hahaha).. Was that really ME? Or was it just from my imaginations? illusions? damn!! what was really it then? Yet, what i have become now has made me more human, more sensual being, more responsible being.. Sakto kaha na? hehehhe.. I guess the past has made me more than what i have become now.. sometimes when I browse here on my page i simply can't imagine what i have been writing before.. well, i guess that was BEFORE. NOW is totally different. And i think its really great! Because I'm very happy with what I am now. I'm happy with the people that surrounds me.. No SUPERMAN. No BATMAN. No SPIDERMAN. But I have a MAN who loves and take good care of me.. This MAN is my medication and my everything..And with that alone I am HAPPY. And I think, i miss writing, here on my page.. hhmmmm... i think i can start tonight..

Ding Ding

I’ve always hated that wall against us
Why us?
Is there any US?
I simply hate that ever since….

What’s that wall for by the way?
I can’t let it stay for long anymore
It annoys everyone
You and me of course

How long has it been there?
I noticed it before
You also did
But why did we let it grow?

Now, the wall has its own place
That no one could erase
I can’t bear it
Can you?

Cheese and crackers!
I wanna break the down the wall
Won’t you too?
It has stayed for long somehow

I don’t want that wall to be the obstacle
I may have you
But not unless the wall has been taken
How absurd

Its obscurity separates us
I can’t let that happen
But if you will
Then go on

Plain and simple
Things hasn’t been easy before
How much now?
Now, that some things from within is blurry.

And some things must fall to its place
The way it has to be where.
You are just irreplaceable.
Darn that wall!

Walah Neh

I can’t stand this feeling. Darn! What’s this? It’s like a perfect storm that hit me inevitably. Why now? Yoohooo! I just love it! It helped me to keep me goin’. I hope this will be the last time I will …. (hahahah) After a how many years of frustrations I have never felt this way before. It’s a feeling of completeness and merriment that engulfs my heart and mind. Is this really it? I can’t explain somehow. Why is he damn so different among others? Darn! He’s not even that you know what I mean. It’s just that, there’s something in him that I don’t know? Somewhat something? LOL (unsa diay?) I hope he felt the same way too. Ooh boy! What to do now? Am I already into him? Since when did I start to care about him so much? Since when did I start to miss him? And since when did I start to fall for him? Poor heavens! Have I gone crazy? What is he doin’ with me? I can’t barely imagine the fact that that that……..(walah neh!) Ooh bliss! He’s a superb and he’s even worst than you could imagine. And why the heck it’s him? His imperfection totally sucks but that made all the excitements and perfections. And besides I have no right to be mad at all. He's not even mine. (sigh) Why does loving him felt so wrong yet I'm convinced that its definitely right. See you around Superman . . .

"Love isn’t about how much you can get. It’s about how much you’re willing to give and sacrifice just for the one you love. Love means never having to say you're sorry. Love is even more beautiful than you could ever imagine. Love is something that no one could explain unless you experience it. And yet somehow, we’re terribly blinded. Love starts when you start caring for the person. Love defies all the wrongs and seeks for truth. But certainly, I prefer to preserve these three precious words “I love you” for True Love definitely Waits."