E M P T Y

Empty or in short vacant? What is it then? Meaningless right? This is what i've been feeling all along. This pitiful emptiness inside me won't let me go. I hate this feeling! I really really hate this! Hate is a strong word but i really really don't like it! Why does it taunt me all this time? Why am I very much affected? Does it matter? Why? Why? Why? I'm craving for some love..(LOL)Won't you give me some? Will you? I've suffered too much to hide my feelings. I think about that "empty" space a lot. That emptiness is what allows for something to actually evolve in a natural way. I've had to learn that over the years - because one of the traps of being a HUMAN is to always want to be creating, always wanting to produce. You know that day after day of, Oh God what am I going to do with my self's feeling? The fear of the emptiness that it implies keeps me going because loving can cost a lot but not loving always costs more, and those who fear to love often find that want of love is an emptiness that robs the joy from life. We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When we understand this, we see that we are nothing. And being nothing, we are everything. That is all.